Kematian IV

 

Mistery of death,  

Unbelievable, 

shocking .. sadly .. 

I don't know, 

what I have to do, should I ???

what I have to say, 

speechless .. 

sadness .. 

nor happiness, 

I don't know about my feeling anymore, 

as you make me numb before the happening, 

before you leave me infinitely, 

I even already say good bye 

However, 

when the real good bye is in front of me, 

I can not barely understand the meaning of good bye! 

Is it real for the person like me???

Is it true that we're done??

Really ... really .. such a sad story to have  at the end! 

But .. 

I need to close this chapter or end the story 

Even though .. you are still asking, 

It is kinda sad to see the truth that I already know 

But ..  this is not what I thought so soon and 

I am really sorry ,, 

I do really sorry, 

That this is happening to you for good, 

without compromise!

You can rejected or argue, 

This is your  life that gotta be end, 

I know ... 

Even though .. 

I can  even still .. smell of it, 

your  breath smell, 

your tongue twisted, 

your gentle touch 

your  eyes that make me love you,

We had a great memory, 

Great one absolutely, 

Never ever forget about it, 

Such. a good part that stay in me, 

It is the hardest thing for me to erase 

all the memories of you, 

still vivid .. 

whatever you wrote in messages, 

I can see how you are .. 

Become other person because  .. 

you are next to me

Thank you for being who you are, 

I'll always treasure our moments, 

even .. it is painful for me, 

but at least I know you better, 

Hope you are happy up there, 

end of June 2021