AGING

Aging.  It's a noun.  It's only one word but the meaning it's quite heavy on all aspect. Still .. I need to talk about it even in my head I want to forget it! lol

It's easy to say to someone :  "Nahh .. you're still young! no worry about that!!  Then my friend will say the same thing to me : you think you're old???  well .. I did.  I can say am not the same age as I was 5 or 10 years ago.  That number is not just a number!!  I mean it.

I am trying to recalled when I was 20 years old, 30 years old .. that was like .. yeah,  it's just a number! My time still far away from the hell, hohoho.  I'm seriously never ever think that number is running and competing with my life!  However,  when it comes to number 40 and the rest  - I do really felt like  someone is slapping my face and make me wake up and realized that I am running out of time!  That's exactly what I felt.

I still remember when my parents spoiled me like a hell.  I was crying out loud when I didn't know how to cook the first time!! - that was in my early 20. Then, 10 yrs later I do really know how to cook from A-Z!  Whenever I went out to eat and I don't like what I ate, I'll find the answer how to make it! I am so evolved from stupidity to know how deal with it.

Exactly.  I remember mom said one time : you'll understand when you're old enough. Bang. It slaps my face.  Whatever she said is right.  I am trying to recall everything that she said.

Now, my age is even 100 divided into two and still plus ... the equation is even more than I thought and that is not just slapping my face but knocking my head .. wake up .. wake up, Any!!! Yup .. hell ya. 

I do understand when my body is not as great equation as when I was 30 or 40ish. It is make me  thinking all the time what I should do every time I am gonna do something! I have to think about the effect or the impact when something might go wrong with my action.  It doesn't matter what I did, I have to think twice or more. That is my reality right now before am on my 60th! That is not just a number!! It is a serious number in every actions. 

to be continue ...