Last time I wrote about greeting in New Year 2015, and now .. it's 2019! Dang. What a days, months and years had been passed. I felt so running out of time being alone. People usually happy when new year is coming, it is like a birthday celebrations. Not me. I definitely not happy as my age is adding up = I am losing a lot of time and I am getting more digit. I don't like that idea at all.
I am not afraid being old at one point but .. it is kinda slow pace movement in my brain to except the reality that am getting there sooner or later (fuck!!). Yup .. am gonna be 50 in no time and I do still believe that life is one time thing, meaning there is no such a hell or heaven or whatever you wanna believe after death. My point is .. in my losing time, I want to make sure that my life is worth it for my kids, my family, my friends, my environment, my world etc etc .. with no regret. As I told you in 2015, even I wasn't born to be a winner nor the loser.
From 2015 to present, I learn a lot! I mean a LOT .. LOT .. in life. I am not perfect but I learn that life is not about being happy or having a lot of money or hangout with beautiful bitch or handsome guy or the smart people or stupid people or or or else else ... etc. etc. I learn that life is better when you are alone without noisy from others.
Anyway, I wore a lot of black and love black and white picture, but my mind is very colorful if you can see my brain, lol.
HAPPY New Year 2019.
